I'm a bit of a lurker so I don't post much. But thoughts of suicide are very serious.

This link might help:
http://www.suicidehotlines.com/alaska.html

Also mental health is usually seperate from physical health in relation to how the insurance is handled (i.e. you usually don't need to see your general doctor to get permission to see a therapist). Give your insurance member number a call and they will direct you to what you need to see a therapist.

The biggist thing: "Do Not Wait".