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Have you ever noticed...
Apr. 5th, 2004 09:08 pmthat the more time you have the less you do??? I went to work today it was blah...but I managed. And well my mom got another job after work today so she didnt' get home until 9pm and it was great not having her around. But I noticed that I still didn't finish anything. I wanted to start editing part 1 of my story spellbound...and I keep putting it off. I spent way way too much time trying to find another version of Return of the King to download on bittorrents, and then the internet went down so I watched Terminator 3 with my brother, checked a friend's space game for him (when the internet came back). I played a bit with our dog Padin, managed 30 minutes of walking outside...Watched an episode of Stargate SG-1 on the sci-fi channel (one I had not seen yet) yay me. :) And there was a Deep Space Nine marathon on tv so I watched that too...not having internet kind of sucked but instead of working on my story I fretted about not having internet and so I watched tv instead of sitting at my laptop wondering why my internet provider hates me.
It's just tonight while I was in the shower looking at the flab that is starting to grow on my stomach I realized I managed to get through college with working, studying, papers, and at least 1 hour of exercise in every day, plus wrote some stories.
Since I finished school and came home to live with my parents again, I just haven't felt like I've accomplished anything and I feel restless again more often than not. maybe I'm suffering from low grade depression. I feel like I'm stuck in a groundhog day sort of movie, where nothing changes. I hate this waiting. I feel like I'm just killing time waiting for my life to start and I don't know what to do until I find out if I got accepted to this law school I applied to.
Anyway I suspect this weekend will blow. Normally I enjoy easter but my mom is saying she invited all 8 of her sisters and brothers to come to our house for easter weekend, which is kind of like 16 people since they are all married. :( I can't help but be pessimistic. I might have been excited about having guests over but now mom wants to clean house like crazy to impress her brothers and sisters. I think it's bullshit. I already told my sisters and brothers I'll never spend more than 30 minutes picking up before any of them visit. If they wnat a cleaner place to visit they can go to Holiday Inn.
It's just tonight while I was in the shower looking at the flab that is starting to grow on my stomach I realized I managed to get through college with working, studying, papers, and at least 1 hour of exercise in every day, plus wrote some stories.
Since I finished school and came home to live with my parents again, I just haven't felt like I've accomplished anything and I feel restless again more often than not. maybe I'm suffering from low grade depression. I feel like I'm stuck in a groundhog day sort of movie, where nothing changes. I hate this waiting. I feel like I'm just killing time waiting for my life to start and I don't know what to do until I find out if I got accepted to this law school I applied to.
Anyway I suspect this weekend will blow. Normally I enjoy easter but my mom is saying she invited all 8 of her sisters and brothers to come to our house for easter weekend, which is kind of like 16 people since they are all married. :( I can't help but be pessimistic. I might have been excited about having guests over but now mom wants to clean house like crazy to impress her brothers and sisters. I think it's bullshit. I already told my sisters and brothers I'll never spend more than 30 minutes picking up before any of them visit. If they wnat a cleaner place to visit they can go to Holiday Inn.
