I feel like clubbing

I don't know why but today I suddenly felt like I wanted to go clubbing, to be more specific I'd like to go to a gay dance club I know in Austin and when I mentioned this, Tom didn't seem to thrilled with the idea of the two of us going to a gay dance club. :( he's so conservative sometimes. Anyway, this is one of my main fears about getting married, not getting the chance to go out and party at least once in a while. I mean I normally hate going clubbing or to parties where there is loud music and too much cigarette smoke, but ocassionally I get the urge to go someplace where I can dance and feel sexy and not like such a dweeb all the time. The only times i'd ever really felt sexy were when I danced at a club sandwhiched between two hot guys.

It's not that I want to pick up any guys I guess I just want to confirm that I can still attract other men. I think some of my insecurity stems from the fact that since I graduated from college I gained back the 5 pounds I lost. :( It's all back on my stomach again. grrr anyway, maybe I should exercise a lot more before I really go clubbing again.