Big Bang thoughts and stuff

I got my beta's comments on my story. I read through them all and there were a lot of areas to think about! She's so awesome. But now I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. I didn't really listen to all the advice I read that said to wait three days because I really wanted to get to work fixing up my story.

So today I started, I've added a lot to the beginning to flesh things out and etc...except now when I re-read it I'm not sure if it's any good! And I hate doubting myself. I think before I continue onwards I may give it a few more days to settle.

I have until July 19th to have a fully polished story and I've read that other people go through multiple revisions before they post. I'm not sure why I thought my story would escape that fate considering I actually do want people to enjoy reading it. I'm also listening to my beta reader because I do trust her judgment and she came up with some brilliant ideas to help refine the story and make it even better. I think I've officially spent more time on this story than any other I've written in years, and this is probably a good thing. :) I really don't feel like writing anything else until this story is completed, revisions and all.

The story is currently past the 30k mark but I may end up deleting a whole section...so I'm not sure anymore what the final word count will be though at the rate I'm adding to the fic it may very well be around 30k by the time I'm done.

I think a lot of my self doubt and worries come from the fact that I've had a cold for the last three days (Tuesday I called in sick I felt so miserable) So maybe I'm just tired and it's hard for me to stay positive when I feel like this. Plus breathing through my mouth all day really sucks. :(