Recent thoughts and stuff

[amalthia]

Last night I was really depressed but more than just depressed kind of pissed off too, lately I've been angry like all the time. Anyway, last night it hit me that maybe the reason I've been feeling angryhas more to do with Gina dying than my husband coming home. I think him being here just gives me a target to focus my pent up emotions of frustration and anger but it took me about a week to realize that even when my husband didn't do anything I was still angry (which really isn't like me) I normally get angry fast and get over it but for the last two weeks I haven't been getting over it.

I thought I was handling things well, only spent one day sleeping and crying and then I just went on. But I think it's now hitting me that my friend is really dead and not coming back. I just don't know why I'm in a bad mood all the time instead of sad.

Comments

[yami-chan.livejournal.com]

Anger is one of the steps of bereavement. It’s normal.

Just tell your husband so he's aware and you don't start a huge fight with him.

[amalthia]

i've talked about it with him. I think he understands. The anger thing may be normal but it doesn't feel like it should be normal.

[yami-chan.livejournal.com]

You were having other problems too. Maybe it's all sort of meshed together. But some anger after a death is normal.