My new years weekend

[amalthia]

I have all these recs saved from Friday but I haven't had time to post yet. Friday after work my husband who'll I'll now refer to as T, and I went shopping for stuff we needed for the apartment, then went to the mall so I can get a new pair of eyeglasses. It's been 6 years since I've changed my lenses (so today I'm going through the my glasses feel funny stage) and then we saw a movie together. Apocolypto I think was okay, though Blood Diamond was better. Maybe it's because I still have this for Leonardo Dicaprio....

Anyway...yesterday evening T and I mainlined Dexter, after my dinner of leftover chinese food, I ate an entire bowl of popcorn, 2 pastries, a sunkist orange soda and 3 twizzlers. I guess around midnight I started feeling sick. :( so had to stop watching Dexter on the second to last episode of the season! so I could go and throw up. had to empty my stomach a few more times and after that I went to bed feeling rather sorry for myself. I've now concluded maybe I ate too much too quickly. :(

However, today not feeling sick but my stomach hurts. T and I plan on watching the rest of Dexter and some movies like Shakesphere in Love, Far and Away, and Resevoir Dogs. If there is time we'll probably watch Elizabeth too.

Now as for the this year in review...I didn't make any vids and only wrote one story that I posted online and that was for sga_santa I don't think it went over so well. I got some feedback but I think I need to work on my writing some more in January to make my stories more compelling. (or maybe not the story but the language)

shows I've discovered and loved. well Dexter for one, Heroes, and Doctor Who.

this year left me with mixed feelings. Last January, a really good friend of mine died from a heart condition, which left me depressed for months and I still makes me sad thinking about her. I also spent the first half of the year unemployed. The second half the year went okay. I got a job I like, I like my co-workers, I like the hours. Things are going great, got a car of my own. Then T's brother died in August and that was pretty bad too. :(

However, even with the two deaths in our lives, I've never been independent like this before and I'm happy and in love with T. I'm writing again. I think I just have to stop feeling guilty for being happy that I'm alive and life is going better than I imagined it would and just enjoy. I can't imagine either Gina or T's brother begrudging us being happy just because they are no longer around. I try not to pick friends that are petty and mean spirited. Also, I think it really helped that I had the opportunity to spend time with Gina before she died and we discussed this a bit while watching the cooking channel. Basically, she told me she was more worried about the people she was leaving behind, and for me, she just wanted me to be happy. I think because of Gina I've appreciated life a lot more this year than I ever did before. She was my age when she died, and well it reminded me that I only have this one life.

I tell T that so many bad things happen for no good reason that when things are good you should appreciate it and hold onto it with both hands because you never know when things will go bad again. so basically, it's an enjoy it while it lasts mentality, and when things go bad hold onto those memories to see you through bad times. Because I do believe even after bad times there is still hope for happiness in the future and even in the present.

So anyway, for the upcoming year I hope to write more than I did this year, maybe actually make a new music video or two. Spend some quality time with T. And not make myself sick eating all sorts of bad foods.

Edit: I also need to work on maintaining friendships. Sometimes I get distracted and well I don't like losing people.

Comments

[wyrdfae.livejournal.com]

sorry you were sick. I had bad stomach stuff last weekend.
also, I liked your story. so there

[amalthia]

after last night I completely sympathize with you for last weekend. Getting sick on your days off just sucks.

I'm glad you liked my story. :)