I think my hormones hate me

[amalthia]

Today I've felt very meh, haven't felt like doing anything and this doesn't feel like me, I didn't even feel like reading fan fiction! When I got home I didn't feel like reading, let alone vidding or writing and basically I'm feeling like a big loser and I'm completely blaming my hormones and maybe lack of sleep on that.

I'm considering revising my video Captain Nemo instead of creating a new vid. Mostly so I can get some more practice with Ulead Media Studio Pro 8...I just don't like the timeline for the program. I like the nice storyboard timeline Video Studio more...okay the point is when I first created the Captain Nemo vid I only had season 1 and first episode of season 2 to work with and since then...there have been some incredible episodes and awesome shots of the city that I would have loved to use if they had them back when I was first making this video. (plus there are a lot more underwater scenes than before...) so it feels like I have a legit reason to go back and redo this video.

Anyway, because I didn't feel like doing anything at all...I watched a lot of vids and tried not to compare my current skill level to other vidders who kick ass at vidding. (normally I watch videos and appreciate and love them and don't compare but when I'm depressed and feeling meh...it's probably not the best time for me to watch vids)

Tomorrow, instead of feeling sorry for myself...i'm setting a goal. Before I go to bed I should write something for the Porn Challenge...I know I felt pretty happy writing my sga_santa story especially the NC-17 parts...

moral of the story for today...sleep more and wait for menopause. (for some reason I'm convinced when I get older my hormones will stabilize more than my birth control is currently able to handle, though I'm sure this is completely not how it works)

Comments

[dustandroses.livejournal.com]

The Porn Battle fic are a real rush to write. At least for me they are. I have a really bad habit of getting carried away with my stories, and the size limit on comment fic can actually be very - liberating. I know when I start that what I write can only be 600 or 700 words long, so from the very beginning I have to use a different mindset. My writing becomes much more sparse and succinct, because when I have to make every word count I have to pay much closer attention to how I get to my point.

To be honest, I can actually get addicted to them. I've written three for this challenge already, and I've got three more in mind. I haven't decided if I'm going to write them now, I think my beta needs a break, but I occasionally write using the format even when I'm not writing an actual comment fic, just because I enjoy writing them so much.

So yeah...I say go for it!

[amalthia]

well I'm going to give this a shot later tonight when I'm home from work. :) it does sound like fun.

[wyrdfae.livejournal.com]

I remember when I changed from Orthotricyclen to the lo version it made me a little whacky for a while. sometimes it takes a few months to get used to a new one

[wyrdfae.livejournal.com]

btw did you have a black pen with an arrow on it at the browncoats meeting. I hope you feel better!
maybe I will see you sunday....?

[amalthia]

what's happening sunday???? I really need to read the Browncoat forums more often. But there's a good chance if fun stuff is happening i'll be there. :)

[wyrdfae.livejournal.com]

I sent your email to conan to email you...whatever. every year i learn from my mistakes and eventually I will know better than to have a big ol' hootenany ever

[amalthia]

yeah I think I'm still adjusting to the new bc pills...and I don't think I lost any of my pens at Star Pizza.

life comes at you fast

[(Anonymous)]

hang in there. life gets worst. a baby helps straightens out hormone problems. my son jason did that well.

Re: life comes at you fast

[amalthia]

is this my mom???? because I do have an older brother named Jason..... um but yeah I've heard having babies does help with acne....but I imagine I'd have a heart attack from stress if I had a baby. (though I may change my mind five years from now)