Personal stuff
Nov. 15th, 2008 03:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
amalthiaWell actually it's not really personal. yesterday I went shopping with my husband got myself a coat that actually fits and my husband LOVES this coat. :) Can't say I blame him it's really cute and I'll have to take a picture of it. I also got two new pair of pants, some cute long johns (not sure if they have another name but that's what my dad always called them, except the ones I found were so much cuter than the ones my dad picked up for us when we were kids in Fairbanks) to go under said pants because really the wind cuts right through regular jeans and other jean like materials.
So anyways, I'm kind of getting used to Winter with snow and freezing winds (okay I'm totally hiding out inside) but tomorrow morning my husband and I plan on going ice skating at the city park. It sounds like a lot of fun and I'm looking forward to trying out new skates and I hope the long johns help keep my legs warmer.
On the job front, I'm starting to realize I have 0 self esteem when it comes to my abilities and that my husband thinks I can do so much more than what I think I can do. He's presenting me all these jobs that he thinks I should apply for and I'm nervously thinking they'll fire me within a week once they realize I don't know that much. But I'm not sure where this is coming from? I taught myself how to make music vids (with the help of tons of online guides to be honest) photoshop, dreamweaver, and other programs. I'm running two archives which do require me to contact a lot of writers and volunteers who want to help with said archives. I'm a moderator for multiple LJ communities. I don't know why I feel like I'd be bad when talking with customers or talking on the phone with business associates. I had to call quite often to various markets at my previous job. I have a hard time believing I can't learn anything I set my mind to. And I'm beginning to think the only way I'll ever make more than 30k a year is to first have faith in myself and my own abilities. Because without that I'll always just take the first job offer at whatever they'll pay me and due to the low self esteem feel really grateful that I got hired.
Also, I think I'm afraid I won't find a job I liked as much as my last one. It's hard to find a good work environment and nice co-workers and no one cared what I wore to work. (or if they did it was never mentioned to me) But I think it would be a mistake to try finding something like the last job because honestly I thought what I did was rather unique in many ways and this would be a great opportunity to try another field and learn more.
So anyways, I'm kind of getting used to Winter with snow and freezing winds (okay I'm totally hiding out inside) but tomorrow morning my husband and I plan on going ice skating at the city park. It sounds like a lot of fun and I'm looking forward to trying out new skates and I hope the long johns help keep my legs warmer.
On the job front, I'm starting to realize I have 0 self esteem when it comes to my abilities and that my husband thinks I can do so much more than what I think I can do. He's presenting me all these jobs that he thinks I should apply for and I'm nervously thinking they'll fire me within a week once they realize I don't know that much. But I'm not sure where this is coming from? I taught myself how to make music vids (with the help of tons of online guides to be honest) photoshop, dreamweaver, and other programs. I'm running two archives which do require me to contact a lot of writers and volunteers who want to help with said archives. I'm a moderator for multiple LJ communities. I don't know why I feel like I'd be bad when talking with customers or talking on the phone with business associates. I had to call quite often to various markets at my previous job. I have a hard time believing I can't learn anything I set my mind to. And I'm beginning to think the only way I'll ever make more than 30k a year is to first have faith in myself and my own abilities. Because without that I'll always just take the first job offer at whatever they'll pay me and due to the low self esteem feel really grateful that I got hired.
Also, I think I'm afraid I won't find a job I liked as much as my last one. It's hard to find a good work environment and nice co-workers and no one cared what I wore to work. (or if they did it was never mentioned to me) But I think it would be a mistake to try finding something like the last job because honestly I thought what I did was rather unique in many ways and this would be a great opportunity to try another field and learn more.