okay a real update this time

[amalthia]

well it's not much of one. I finally got a job and I'm not sure if I'm going to like it or not. I never met anyone before who worked as a security guard, well except the few security guards I've seen at banks and parking lots. But you don't really speak with them...

Tom says I shouldn't worry that this job doesn't pay a lot of money. I think i'll be lucky to make 20,000 a year as a security guard.

when I first got the job, I was really happy because I was so worried I would not find any job, but I still feel like looking and I'm not sure if it's because I want more money or because I'm already worried I won't like the job. And if I want more money, does that mean I'm materialistic?

And if I'm worried about just being bored at this job, well aren't all jobs by their very nature boring?

I don't know what to do with my life and it bugs the shit out of me.

Does anyone know anything about selling health insurance??? I had an opportunity to become an Insurance Agent and I turned it down because I wanted a job where I know for sure i'll make money, and not be dependent on convincing people they need health insurance. But now I'm wondering if it's really true that you can make 50,000 a year selling health insurance. It seemed too good to be true and that's pretty much why I bailed.

Tonight sucks, I'm on my period, feel fat, and I'm lost.


story recs for the night
Smallville fandom
Lux - she is one of my favorite Smallville fan fic writers. I just found these two stories yesterday.
the Fifth Victim
and the sequel Awakening